emailing the war [vince said].

Monday, July 18, 2005

emailing the war [vince said].

http://superbadass.net/blog/2005/07/emailing-war-vince-said.html

emailing the war [vince said].

i have seen the tower of babel and the home of abraham.

i have walked through a 5800 year old sacrificial altar/tower that

isn't missing a brick in a country that's plagued by war and

condemned by god himself.

i've seen sheets of glass that were once a vast desert.

i have walked through the city that is thought to be the cradle of

civilization after it was destroyed by greed and power lust.

i have watched boys in mens bodies do things that no super hero could

think of doing.

i've witnessed men die and didn't shed a tear.

i've wiped red from my face and stood there in disbelief.

i have loved and lost and lived through the horrors of war.

i have turned to a few and been turned away by some.

i've looked for help from those i've helped and they didn't even

bother to reply to my cry.

i've walked down crowded streets and dark alleys.

i'm proud of some of my acts and disgraced by others.

[seen ghosts and been saved by angels.]

been hit and hit back a few times.

my mind's infected with the way things could have been and the way

things are.

dreams: glass houses and explosions.

yet, i find it easier to be here than at home facing the daily

monotony of life.

i find it easier to get shot at and shoot back than to drive to an

office and sit in a cubical or drive to a construction site.

i find my mind wandering to far off places where life is simple and

easy.

i remember that life here is easy and simple.

there are no bills that i have to keep up with, no cell phones, no

dates, no car, no insurance and no responsibility other than to stay

alive, destroy this or that and try to help my friends stay alive

when i can.

i find myself wishing for the end and dreaming of the beginning.

the end of this and the beginning of that.

the start of what's next terrifies me and the daily grind is still so

boring that i can barely make it to the end of the day to start the

next 24 hours of boredom.

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